I would be doing dishes and my mind would go to thinking about how much I didn't enjoy cleaning, or that I wished my husband would do the dishes more often. It was not positive.
Next I would be vacuuming the house and plotting a conversation between me and a family member I was upset with. This was dangerous for me because I was unconsciously putting words in their mouth that they would never say, and this made me defensive towards them for no reason. I suppose I just got validation out of it, it's a comfortable place for me to be defensive. I was trying to be prepared for the worst, but that was not necessarily going to happen.
I did not only have negative thoughts, I am proud to say I also had very positive thoughts. I would catch myself looking at another person and saying things I liked about them, or I would compliment myself on a job well done when I completed a task.
This was an eye opening experience that I really enjoyed. It is funny how I have control of my thoughts, but sometimes I let that control go.
Affirmation: I am mindful.
Next I would be vacuuming the house and plotting a conversation between me and a family member I was upset with. This was dangerous for me because I was unconsciously putting words in their mouth that they would never say, and this made me defensive towards them for no reason. I suppose I just got validation out of it, it's a comfortable place for me to be defensive. I was trying to be prepared for the worst, but that was not necessarily going to happen.
I did not only have negative thoughts, I am proud to say I also had very positive thoughts. I would catch myself looking at another person and saying things I liked about them, or I would compliment myself on a job well done when I completed a task.
This was an eye opening experience that I really enjoyed. It is funny how I have control of my thoughts, but sometimes I let that control go.
Affirmation: I am mindful.
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